Yes, yes, I know... still pregnant. Well, it does take 9 1/2 months for a typical human gestation. I am just glad I am not an elephant; they gestate for 22 months and give birth to a 250 pound baby!! I will be glad to wait until this 9 1/2 months is finished.
The past few days have been tiring, but not as tiring as a pregnant elephant I am sure. I have had harder contractions with more regularity. All last night I was woken by my own moaning with each contraction. I was able to take a bath which felt sooooo good. Thank you Benny for the use of your pool. Each day brings a new tiredness, preparing me for the awesome task of caring for a newborn: feeding, dressing, diapering, soothing, holding, gazing at... the list goes on. Soon, very soon.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
The days drag on...
The past few days have been a bit muddled. Just waiting and waiting... and waiting. This babe has to be born sometime, right??
I feel like I am in one of those supermarket doors that revolve. First I can accept that the time is near but not right now, then I am impatient, then resigned, then accepting, and so forth. I know part of it is hormones, but I feel like all my joy for this baby is gone.
I have been staying low to make sure the health nurse does not come and "talk" to me about birthing at home. I was told that she is responsible if anything happens to me while giving birth at home! I think it is just something she takes on herself. I surely would not press charges on her since I don't care for her assistance. She says that she is the midwife, but if she is anything like the other midwife in Loubiere, forget it, I will have my baby completely alone or just with my husband.
I am of the thought that birth, like conception, is a private, quiet time between two intimate persons-- not between me, and some nurse or doctor. Again I am on a soapbox, but when does "assistance" end? Why would I have to take her assistance? I did check into the "laws" surrounding birth and there are none that state a woman cannot have her baby at home, in any circumstances. It is a decision that parents make. Of course we would not make it lightly since it is a decision that affects more than just Travis and I. It affects a new life and 5 other children.
Ok, stepping down now. I will leave that argument for all the UC'ers out there. I just wish to be left alone.
For the past couple of days the contractions have been harder and more rhythmic, but go away when I am exhausted and lie down! How frustrating. I would rather keep going and them make me arise from bed and have a baby! But, patience, Sasha, patience, your time will come and you will curse the labor to which you look forward!
I feel like I am in one of those supermarket doors that revolve. First I can accept that the time is near but not right now, then I am impatient, then resigned, then accepting, and so forth. I know part of it is hormones, but I feel like all my joy for this baby is gone.
I have been staying low to make sure the health nurse does not come and "talk" to me about birthing at home. I was told that she is responsible if anything happens to me while giving birth at home! I think it is just something she takes on herself. I surely would not press charges on her since I don't care for her assistance. She says that she is the midwife, but if she is anything like the other midwife in Loubiere, forget it, I will have my baby completely alone or just with my husband.
I am of the thought that birth, like conception, is a private, quiet time between two intimate persons-- not between me, and some nurse or doctor. Again I am on a soapbox, but when does "assistance" end? Why would I have to take her assistance? I did check into the "laws" surrounding birth and there are none that state a woman cannot have her baby at home, in any circumstances. It is a decision that parents make. Of course we would not make it lightly since it is a decision that affects more than just Travis and I. It affects a new life and 5 other children.
Ok, stepping down now. I will leave that argument for all the UC'ers out there. I just wish to be left alone.
For the past couple of days the contractions have been harder and more rhythmic, but go away when I am exhausted and lie down! How frustrating. I would rather keep going and them make me arise from bed and have a baby! But, patience, Sasha, patience, your time will come and you will curse the labor to which you look forward!
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
A pregnancy funny
Tonight, I was getting ready to smooth some oil on my belly and had my shirt up around the top of my belly. Trinton walks in and says, "You have a big belly button. Your stomach looks like bread." Just what you want to hear, right? So then we had a discussion about bread and my belly. Travis quipped with, "I thought that too, but did not want to say anything."
Good thing I can laugh!
So the conclusion is that I have bread dough belly, like a Russian perogi- a surprise inside. I guess my belly jiggles a bit like bread dough and is raised and soft, and the COLOR of bread dough!!!!
I don't know whether to laugh or cry about my belly being described as such!
Good thing I can laugh!
So the conclusion is that I have bread dough belly, like a Russian perogi- a surprise inside. I guess my belly jiggles a bit like bread dough and is raised and soft, and the COLOR of bread dough!!!!
I don't know whether to laugh or cry about my belly being described as such!
Walking for a baby.
Today we walked to the river to help bring the baby down and out. (If you want to see river pics, go here.) Ha! The only time we want someone to be down and out. This morning we listened to the baby's heartbeat. Little race horse in there. I don't know what week or how far along this pregnancy is now. We have some confusion as to what date was really the LMP and which date to count and how many weeks to count from there- 39 or 40 weeks. With a 3-week cycle, you usually count 39 weeks from LMP, but even then, what if?... I am certain that this baby will come when it needs and that it will not stay in forever! I know that God's wisdom is far greater than mine. Maybe this baby needs extra growing time.
This yellow sleeper is made from one of my t-shirts that was getting worn and I felt it was time to recycle. The pants are also recycled with fresh sewn panty area. The pair on the left comes from a pair of pjs that ended up moldy after a sack of clothing sat and retained moisture. The purple/blue pair's legs are from Taleah's long-sleeved shirt that wasn't long enough in the arms for her. It still fits her in the length, so no need to pass it onto Taya, just make it short-sleeved!
I am glad that a due date is when the baby is born, not a certain date that this baby has to be born by, or risk a c-section. I am happy with my decision to have a natural birth, a homebirth. I have suffered the trauma of 4 hospital births with 2 c-sections and a VBAC. This will be our first HBAC.
Today is Travis' dad's birthday. He was hoping to have a baby on this day, but so far, no dice. We will see what will happen before midnight, but I am NOT holding my breath. Travis also stated that this baby (if a boy) should be named ______ Clifford, but Trinton has that name.
Are there any good Carlile/Dirks/Derenoff/Cole family names that we might use for middle names? These would include Moy, Devine, Hansen, Lapedias, and Holub names too. Any others?
Here is an update of what I have made to add to the other day's post:
This yellow sleeper is made from one of my t-shirts that was getting worn and I felt it was time to recycle. The pants are also recycled with fresh sewn panty area. The pair on the left comes from a pair of pjs that ended up moldy after a sack of clothing sat and retained moisture. The purple/blue pair's legs are from Taleah's long-sleeved shirt that wasn't long enough in the arms for her. It still fits her in the length, so no need to pass it onto Taya, just make it short-sleeved!
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Nope, no baby yet...
I guess that must be my opening line since I am getting tired of answering "Do we have a baby yet?" with "No, of course not."
Today I have been having contractions every 2-3 minutes with varying degrees of severity. Some I cannot handle, most are easily handled. I have never had a very consistent pattern of contractions with them getting stronger, closer together, and making "headway" in the canal. I have, however, managed to dilate to 5cm and back down to 3cm, efface to about 60%, and get the baby down into position. Before, the contractions could not work properly because baby's little head was turned wrong and not engaged all the way. I would have hated to have back labor like I did with Trinton.
Trajun's birth was a long, drawn out one, much like this. I labored for about a week with on-and-off contractions before they set into a hard and fast pattern after taking a whole bottle of castor oil. I may never drink a chocolate shake from Jack in the Box again! I gag just thinking of it. After hard labor set in with Trajun, he was born a little over 3 hours later. It felt like 20 minutes.
Just another boring day waiting around...
I don't know if this has anything to do with it, but the full moon is past and tonight's moon is only 82% illuminated and has a zenith here at 3:24am.
I am just trying to enjoy my time handsewing a few extra baby items. So far, added to the items of a few days ago, I have made 2 more pairs of pants and almost have one sleeper done. I will show pics as soon as I am done with the sleeper.
Today I have been having contractions every 2-3 minutes with varying degrees of severity. Some I cannot handle, most are easily handled. I have never had a very consistent pattern of contractions with them getting stronger, closer together, and making "headway" in the canal. I have, however, managed to dilate to 5cm and back down to 3cm, efface to about 60%, and get the baby down into position. Before, the contractions could not work properly because baby's little head was turned wrong and not engaged all the way. I would have hated to have back labor like I did with Trinton.
Trajun's birth was a long, drawn out one, much like this. I labored for about a week with on-and-off contractions before they set into a hard and fast pattern after taking a whole bottle of castor oil. I may never drink a chocolate shake from Jack in the Box again! I gag just thinking of it. After hard labor set in with Trajun, he was born a little over 3 hours later. It felt like 20 minutes.
Just another boring day waiting around...
I don't know if this has anything to do with it, but the full moon is past and tonight's moon is only 82% illuminated and has a zenith here at 3:24am.
I am just trying to enjoy my time handsewing a few extra baby items. So far, added to the items of a few days ago, I have made 2 more pairs of pants and almost have one sleeper done. I will show pics as soon as I am done with the sleeper.
Friday, January 1, 2010
Happy New Year.
Well, this pregnancy will finish in this new year. A 2010 baby- I can handle that. I think I had a mental block on when the baby was supposed to be born! People kept saying, "Better hurry up and have this baby so you get another tax break." And for some stupid reason, my mind was convinced that I failed if I did not achieve that! As soon as I realized that the new year had come and there would be no extra entry on our 2009 taxes, I relaxed. Funny how things work. And then I was plagued by hard contractions all throughout my sleep.
Also, last night while thinking about my part in this, I came to the realization (again) that I am just a vessel for this baby. I cannot evict or otherwise control the length of stay. Well, I could, but if the baby is not ready, would that be very nice- or could it be considered a type of abortion? That caught me up short.
I am ready for this baby to be born- I think. I know I could be much more prepared with clothing, diapers, etc., but mentally, I think I am just ready for the baby to come.
I looked at what I have for baby in the way of material goods.
A few accessories, 6 onesies, 2 "soakers" 7 homemade prefold diapers, and 5 plastic pants- just in case.
Also, last night while thinking about my part in this, I came to the realization (again) that I am just a vessel for this baby. I cannot evict or otherwise control the length of stay. Well, I could, but if the baby is not ready, would that be very nice- or could it be considered a type of abortion? That caught me up short.
I am ready for this baby to be born- I think. I know I could be much more prepared with clothing, diapers, etc., but mentally, I think I am just ready for the baby to come.
I looked at what I have for baby in the way of material goods.
A girl and boy sweater/hat/booties set, a few pairs of recycled pants. I made these by taking the arms off long sleeves shirts from the older children and sewing them onto little panty-type sewn fabric.
A few accessories, 6 onesies, 2 "soakers" 7 homemade prefold diapers, and 5 plastic pants- just in case.
This might do for the first week. I plan on making a few sleepers, plenty more diapers, pants, and shirts. I think I might have to go buy socks for the baby since it is the cold part of the year here. (I know, nothing compared to the weather most of you are going through!) I have been chilly several evenings and a few days to the point where I wear pants, sweat jacket, and socks in bed! Even pregnant!
I decided on a few "New Year's resolutions" that I can actually attain:
1. Lose 20 pounds! Ha, this year I won't have a very hard time with that.
2. Spend more time with my children; I have them for so short a time.
3. Don't take anything for granted; it can always be taken away.
4. Say "I love you" to my husband and each of my children at least once a day.
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